Chris and I are moving in April to Nashville. We are so excited. Dallas has become an enemy to me and I do not want to feel that way. I feel as though I don't belong here. I want my future to start now. But I also want to take some people with me. We can conclude that I am confused and contemplating a lot of things. I am so glad I have my husband beside me, with me all the way. I love him so very much.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Last week I finished reading the book Same Kind of Different as Me. I am not a reader, but it only took me 3 days to read it. It was one of the most powerful books I have ever read and I could not put it down, nor could I stop from crying. It really has got me thinking. What kind of a life am I leading? What am I called to do? Who am I called to help? And a number of other questions. I desperately desire to change myself from the inside out, but at the same time have no idea what that looks like. The past week I have been very mellow and confused. How do I go about a life change? So many things have been on my mind and I can't seem to figure it out yet. I know I will, I just don't like thinking about how long it might take me.
Friday, July 25, 2008
In the last two months tragedy has hit twice for two of my friends. Lindsay Killingsworth lost her mother and Lauren Woods lost her daddy. It is times like these when people start asking God why questions. I have been in the why situations before. Not too many times, but the few times I have it drew me further and further away from Christ. Like I can even begin figuring out why our great God and King does things. I don't know if it's fair for us to ask these type of questions, do you? All I know is that when God first made the world he was pleased because it was good. Therefore concluding me to believe that bad things are not from God. Death was not part of God's original plan, so I believe that ALL things bad come from Satan (I know that sounds cheesy "Christian-speak" but I can't think of a better way to say it). Yes, God allows them to happen, but if we had lived according to His original design, bad things would not happen. Thoughts?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
There are several marriages around us that are falling apart. Marriages that have only lasted a year. Thinking about that makes me not only sad, but feel that the devil is working overtime in ruining what is good in the world. However, Chris and I love each other more each day. Our relationship continues to grow and we are seeing the fruits of our faithfulness to each other and to God. Chris desires to help those marriages that are failing and I pray that will be my desire too. I never thought that someone could love me like Chris does and I thank God everyday for him and what he does for me, how he makes me feel, and the way he treats me. I am the luckiest woman to get to fall asleep and wake up to the love of my life everyday for the rest of our life together.